Created to be a closer representation of who and how I am, this self portrait was painted for the Ruth Borchard Self Portrait Prize 2019.
Lying upside down on my back, head hanging over the edge, losing control of my expression - it was fun. I chose not to paint my arms partly because gravity changes how arms feel and work when painting upside down. I read a fascinating article in Apollo magazine about Franz Messerschmidt's sculpted expressions. I am surprised and pleased every time I turn this painting upside down to find it looks absolutely nothing like me and yet when it is hung the right way up that's how I look upside down. A pleasing game of perspective.